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Prayers and strength needed

Leese started this conversation

Feb 5, 2012

Homework, homework, homework! What on earth was I thinking when I returned to school in the middle of this storm? I am home schooling Jacob, dealing with the impending loss of his dad and all the while trying to figure out how to return to Michigan where I think he will flourish and return to the boy that I know. It breaks my heart to see him in so much internal pain. I have to keep reminding myself that I am the closest person to him so I am the safety net. I know he loves me but I get the cruddy end of the stick regarding his father's cancer, Jacob's grief and the defiance that has come with it.

All I know to do is to be there whenever he needs me, tolerate some of his defiance but know when to put a kabash on ill behavior when appropriate but most of all put all my worries into god's hands and let it go.

I know that god is a fair and just god. He does not lay more on your shoulders than one can handle. He hears my prayers and acts in kind to what is his divine will. Still I just don't see why my son is the one to bear such a burden? There has to be an answer somewhere but I haven't come across it yet.

Pray, pray, pray for Jacob and ask for strength to help him through all of this. Pray that I have the wisdom and strength to carry on and meet my responsibilties to Jacob and all other things in my life. Please guide us to theother side of this nightmare and bring peace to my son most of all. Amen

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mo_mama

Feb 10, 2012

Hello Leese. My family is praying for your family as I type this message to you. My mama always said "When it rains, it pours but when the sun shines, roses bloom." Your roses are your children and you are the sun shine. Be strong for them and for yourself. You have angels with ya'll all the time watching over. Don't give up and you will pull through.

~A Life Loss Is Not Gone But An Angel Gained~

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Leese

Feb 10, 2012

I am tired and worn out. My son is in a place I can't seem to get into. He's not doing well at all dealing with his father's impending death and it's to the point that I wish all of this would just end. Peace for his father, free of all pain. For Jacob the start of closure and working through grief. For me, a very long road and the reality that I am truly my children's only parent left. All of this is blowing my mind and alot to deal with for me. When does this get better? Pictures of my children who are affected by their father's illness.

Confused and sad,
Lisa